Blah day

Well today has been a blah day for me. I’ve been mildly depressed today. I’ve spent most of the day sleeping as that is my best escape from the world.  My wife also suffers with bipolar and she too has been in a depressive phase and has done a good bit of sleeping.  We are generally not both depressed at the same time but today we have been.  So tell me how many of you also have a mental illness an also have a spouse with a mental illness. I’d love to hear your stories to know that I am not alone.  We’re both on meds she takes latuda an I take my prozac lol we bo t h have good and bad days. But at least we understand and support each other.

Wow, just wow

I just started blogging this week and I’m excited to say I already have 7 followers. That may not seem like alot.  But to me it’s just enough to encourage and motivate me to continue writing.  I had been feeling the blues today but every time I got a notification telling me that someone was following my blog that lifted my moods just a little.  So from the bottom of my heart thank you and thanks for helping me to realize I do not have to be alone in these struggles.   You guys rock!!!!!!

Breaking stigma

In continuing to break the stigma of mental illness, i wanted to share a little of my story.  I first want to send out a special thank you to the blog and blogger who founded pink hi top. I was extremely impressed and blessed today when I had a comment from this fellow blogger, and thus far I’ve been very impressed with her blog.  She has encouraged me to want to share more of my story.  So here goes.  I have suffered with major depression, anxiety, and ptsd for numerous years.  Most of this in my opinion stems from my childhood of being emotionally and sexually abused by a stepfather. Although I want bore you with the details of my abuse I will tell you it has affected me to this day, and I am now a 45 year old man who is trying my best to put all of this behind me.  In my life time I’ve seen several therapust, psychiatrist and have even been hospitalized twice in 2 different psychiatric hospitals.  I currently take 40 mg of prozac on a daily basis and for the most part this helps me to remain sane.  Writing is something I enjoy doing and now that I’m blogging it is helping me to recover as well. I don’t have many people following my blog right now, but i feel in time that will change because I do have a story to be told, and I will tell it.  Thanks for reading

Breaking the stigma of mental illness

How do we start to break this horrible stigma that is associated with mental illness.  Mental illness has its effects not only on the sufferer but also their family members. Although I believe education is the key to reducing some of the stigma that is associated with mental illness, that by far is not enough. We need more people to come together to share of their struggles as well as their successes with regards to mental illness. Please comment below your thoughts and experiences of living with mental illness.  Remember you don’t have to be alone.

Where is the beast?

I sit here and I wonder where is the beast, it’s been awhile since I’ve seen his dark ugly face. But i know he will soon return.  He always does, and usually when I’m not expecting him too.  When he’s around he clouds my thoughts, he eats away everything that is good within me.  He holds me hostage for hours and sometimes even days. He destroys the relationship that I have with others, as he prefers I’m all alone in a dark and gray world. Continue reading Where is the beast?

Ramblings of and insane mind

Wow where to begin this is my first attempt at blogging.  Not really sure where to start or what to say. Sometimes my mind rambles and can be full of good stuff as well as not so good stuff.  I’m not even sure who if anyone would want to read this.  But oh well it helps me with my thoughts. How does one even go about getting followers to their blog.  This is all new to me. I guess in time I will have all the answers, Yea right. 

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